The only thing truly lethal is to remain ignorant. Love those around you more than you love yourself, let them take all as people need things to drop in the course of the way and remain in the nothing of fullness, such nothing attracts all that is too overfilled and will consume it in due time completely. The course of life is always chaotic if one has the courage to let it flow, even in a controled space, such as ritual or performing . I see mastery, that may or may not coincide with knowledge, as the ability to first of all accept this chaos within an inner and outer bias, then to nurture it´s spontaneity and to ride it as a friend until something of a new quality appears. One is always a begginer in this sense. Only afterwards can one decide what was or was not relevant to the outcome. In the beggining no. This is important and takes a great deal of care to be dealt with. Best if you are big enough and open enough to embrace whatever is in front of you in the moment. Everything is conductive to transmutation, transmutation is a way of living and working. You can  just express your desire, state your intentions acting, and engage in a willing landmarking of experiences, of understanding and exchange, meaning that you are mutating and evolving driven by the obssession and the pulsion. Landmarking is both a feeling in the guts and what is often called as results. The worst thing is to try to prove yourself to others, or to yourself , as a good student, great initiate, great performer, via an apprioristic decision of apprioristic relevances. The worst thing is wanting to be the one who the teacher or director pats in the back with an happy smile because you believe you told him what you believe he/she exactly wants to hear. The worst thing is to try to be the best among pupils. This will lead you nowhere. Only to a buffed ego and control freakness, to the typical serious and deadly vain futile pose . If the teacher or director is good and actively in for you, he will probably give you an hard time. Teachers or directors are entitled to some fun. If he\she is stupid or weak your strategy may work , but it will only make you more stupid and more weak. It often happens. There is not enough care here, not enough stressing of the subject : most are in this just to overcome frustrations of their own, posing to be accepted. Maybe you have already met the Grand Masters Artists of  this or that. They live deep within each one of us as worthless parasites and weeds. Keep asking then , when you want, whenever you want, and how you want. But to ask does not mean to place questions after questions, although this is not necessarily bad per se. It means to effectively see what is in front of your face in order to know. The flame is in you, not in the "things" you do, and the flame is you. You are the one to ignite . If not, on one hand, you might get bored and in conflict with your so called inner drive, on the other, you may become dependant on the trip and kick making a puppet out of yourself. But If you apply the search to your life and indeed cope with the creative struggle of doing it, your life and the work itself will surely give you the answers you require. " Know what is in front of your face and what is hidden from you will be revealed". There is no need to justify yourself, simply to be truly present. The work by itself can bring a lot of energy into the surface. It is a magical operative machine to devellop consciousness with the power to put that consciousness into use via actions. If you are not wise that energy turns into something that will harm you and harm others . Things are available. It is just natural to happen so you owe it to yourself and others to be alert. You owe to yoursef and others to be extremely cunning as well as extremely innocent . Take nothing for granted: " If the Lion eats the Man that´s stupid, if the Man eats the Lion, that´s Good". Please understand why, in silence. What you will or not do is , in the end, your problem, your fate, your tragedy and your comedy. Demand from yourself to overcome the obvious. The only thing truly lethal is to remain ignorant.

Hugo Calhim Cristóvão